So we celebrated our birthdays and 4th year wedding anniversary a few days ago.
Nothing major. With whatever $$ we have left, we had a staycation in jb for one night. Just the 4 of us. It only cost us about $45 with breakfast & lunch provided.
After check out, we were driving past some road junction when i saw an indonesian restaurant. Felt a sudden crave, and we decided to have it as a wedding anniversary dinner.
On 20 dec 2013, my son turned 1.
This time round, i really cant afford to host a birthday party. I was really2 feeling so guilty and so sorry for not being able to give him the best that he ever deserve.
Since my employment status was confirmed after 1 week of work, i was entitled to a birthday leave. I took it on the 20th. Sent my kids for vaccination and then brought them to The Indoor PLayloft in jb opposite aeon bukit indah. Hearing my kids laughter and happiness is priceless. At least i felt a load off my shoulder of the guilt i felt for not being able to host a party for him.
Today, i brought them to toa payoh safra swimming pool. They really had today, so do i and my husband.
3 straight days with the family. Lots of laughter and cries (from kids fights or crankiness when their tired), and stories shared between husband and wife.
Really fulfilling weekend indeed.
Tomorrow, work will start again as usual. I will miss my kids. But the good thing, this week will be another short week due to xmas.
Till then, i leave you with a message to my son.
Dear farrell,
The first word you called out on your birthday was 'mahhh-meeee'. I was very proud my son. When I brought u for vaccination, I am proud of you when strangers commented on your physique, on how fast you started wwalking when their kids cant, on how smart you are and that you dont look 1 but older, I really am a proud mummy my son.
Mummy is so sorry for not being able to give you what i had given ur sister thus far. Your sister had took trips overseas till indo but the furthest you reached was KL. Your sis took all modes of transport before she reached one but you only knew the car that we have. Your sister got to go for gym lessons but you only learnt from what you saw her do. Your sister has a huge birthday bash and a photobook of her first year journey in life with 2 photoshoots but all you had are photos taken from my handphone and a private first year celebration.
But. You develop so much faster and quicker. You mastered skills and motor skills much better. Its like you are still the best despite being deprived.
Mummy is really sorry for not being able to treat you and your sis the same. What more with what had happened, some relationships had been tarnished and mummy is really not sure if life will ever be the same. But I do want to let know you that my love for you never is lower than ur sis. I love you both all the same and that I pray that both of you will be blessed with all the good things in life.
Mummy and daddy promise that once we pass this crisis, both of you will be showered with all the goodness that we can provide and a fair share of other sweetness of life. That i promise you.
I love you my son. Happy birthday!
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