deep down inside my heart....

When you think that the world shows its back on you, don’t fret.

Don’t drain yourself with all the negative and bad energy.

Sometimes HE is testing us.

And remember, HE won’t test us beyond what we are capable to handle.

A lot of people say lots of things.

That is definitely beyond our control.

But what we can control is how we take whatever they said.

Our response, our thoughts and of course our actions to whatever been said.

For there will surely be some souls out there who are always watching over you.

Souls that are waiting to catch you whenever you feel like falling.

These souls can be your beloved parents, siblings, husband/wife, fiancé/fiancée, friends etc…

These past few months, I know that the people around me, including myself have lots going on. Be it weddings, engagements, newborn, career switch, funerals and so on.. And I have personally see how different people react to each incident.

To be honest, I can break down if I didn’t have that patience, the self-controlled and positive emotions.

I hang on even the people around me jeered at what I am doing. Sometimes I feel like bursting whenever they used words like “beban”, “ apasal tak boleh tunggu dulu”, “takda hasil” etc… Deep down, I just don’t believe that these people don’t share the same feelings as me.. Aren’t they excited as well? Is what I’m doing a problem to them?

Whatever it is, it’s too late to retract. Times are moving, so is my life. Maybe this is what that have fated, and the future seems still uncertain. But one thing for sure, I believe HE have created what is the best for me. And with that in mind, I paved my way bravely. For even if the whole world is facing its back on me, I know that Sharil will always be there for me.

Someone once said, we cannot control whatever people want to say. But how we react to what’s being said differentiates a person’s fate in live. And I agree. It is hard to please everybody. So let’s start by pleasing myself.

Someone also said, whatever happens, always remember the journey, not the destination because the journey is the one that is going to shape who you are now and in the future.

Ya allah ya tuhanku, tabahkanlah hatiku, kuatkanlah semangatku untuk menempuhi dugaan ini semua… Semoga semuanya berjalan dengan lancar, insyallah.