Things are back to bad?!

Sigh.... I dont know when this trial will end. In april, we faced another setback which almost ended our marriage. Yes, i was that close to ending all of it. I tried to be strong, and still trying now. But its gerting very tiring & challenging.

I finally quit AIA on 13 April, and informed all my clients on that date. But officially, the date is 30 apr. 29 Jan 2009 till 30 April 2015. My very first job after graduation.

My very first job that witnessed my life changing moments. My wedding ceremony, my first and second children's delivery and my downfall.

Till now, i sure missed the flexibility of working hours, being able to work as and when i feel like it. No such things as mc or leaves. No need to be responsible for 'unfinished' work or no need to explain your absence to anybody.

So now, im left fending to my other office hour job. Stuck at work from 9am to 6pm or maybe later, till 7pm. A very fixed pay, a not-very-condusive work environment in all aspects. But thats all i have now. Ya, sure i wanted to look for another job. But something else is also binding me there.

Advanced bonus which is given to me every quarter. And my dad.

Yup, my dad was retrenched sometime this year. Forgot the exact date. And knowing him, his character, his age, it is quite difficult for him to get another job. I even offered to pay for him to  be a taxi  driver but my mum refused.

Due to the other liabilities that he has, he cannot afford to be jobless. So, my bosses pursuarded me twice to bring him in (i rejected their offer once on behalf of my dad).. N so i did. On 1 march, he joined. Im always on the lookout for him. Nobody at work besides the bosses and a close colleague knew we are related. My colleague knew also because i consulted with her whether it is wise to bring my dad in. But after consideration, better he do something rather than jobless.

At most, if he doesn't like it, he can just endure till end of year till his cpf money is available.  Lol

On another note,  my husband got shifted back to shift hours starting 1june. Sigh...

Back to sleeping at my mum's plc whenever he works night shift. A lot of packing n unpacking required. Another adjustment needed.

But that's life right? Sigh..

O Allah, please grant me patience and open my rezki in abundance for us to go through this trial, ya allah. We have soured many friendships and family relationships because of this trial. And i just cant wait for it to end. Ya allah. Please grant us our wish. Amin.