hear me rant

I think this entry will be the longest ever since I started interning.

Disclaimer:

1) if you feel bored, just click on the X button on the top right hand corner
2) this will be a random entry, I’ll try not to make it a roller-coaster ride

About Work

I said it once and I’m going to say it again. I really hate my current working environment. They claimed they are not hierarchical – as in everyone is equal in the office but during lunch time, everyone eats lunch by themselves. Even if they go in groups, the higher ranking ones will be one group while the lower ranking ones in another group.

I’m so glad there’s another intern with me, right now, someone whom I know from school and is seated right beside me at work. Before a new malay staff came in, it’s just the 2 of us. After that, the new staff joined us. I think once we leave, the staff will be eating alone.

Sometimes it makes me wonder, does working people often eat alone? Is eating in groups only happen during your schooling life? Or is it just my department?

I heard stories from some people that it is just my department that has their so-called "attitude". Other departments are more fun and there’s synergy, not to mention that it is a norm that their official lunch is 1 ½ hours while mine is only an hour.

That’s the reason why I hated coming to work. I think I am a more people-oriented kind of person. How people around me react will have some impact on me on one way or another. I don’t know whether it is a good thing or not… But one thing for sure, this experience has opened my eyes that the working world is not very nice as it’s reflected to us during school days.

Lunch aside, work has been terrible. Work load that is. I'm not going to elaborate a lot on that... Bottomline is: I'm overworked but really underpaid. Argghhhhhhh!

Kak Fida's soon-to-be wedding

I read Suki's journal on her childhood with Kak Fida. It was sooo touching..(Basically suki is the older sister while fida is the younger). Fida is getting married this coming Friday! She mentioned how close she is with her sister and that things will be different when her sis gets married. I wonder if I'll have the same feelings with my sisters once I'm married.... I guess only time will tell...

To Kak Fida, CONGRATULATIONS FOR YOUR WEDDING! Semoga berbahagia & berpanjangan jodoh hingga ke akhir hayat, insyallah! I'm so sorry that I had to miss it. Hope all goes well and have fun on your big day!

Suki, if you are reading this, please pass her my msg... *winks*

This coming weekend, I'll be home-alone. My entire family together with all my fa-ternal families (my dad's siblings families) will be convoy-ing to Malaysia to witness Fida's wedding...

I couldn't follow since I'm unable to take any leave while I'm interning. You ask, why won't I take MC for friday? I can, if I want to... But truth is, even if I do, there's no one to take care of my cats....

So, I kinda have to sacrifice for them... the sacrifices I made for cats... *tsk tsk*

To Suki,

I know that you are feeling down right now... Having to be separated from someone you love is not easy. Trust me, I know... But thank god that you are still alive right now to witness many more days to come... Do remember, tuhan takkan menduga kita kalau kita tak mampu menanggungnyer...

I know you are strong inside. And I'm sure you'll be able to get through this hard period. Always remember, to love does not mean to own. Sometimes we have to sacrifice for the ones we love... Berdoalah, semoga kebahagianmu akan tiba tak lama lagi.... Don't compare your love life with others, for we are created to be unique and different in many ways... Most importantly, don't give up on love... I'm sure it will come to you one day, insyallah....

my prayers be with you....

The dream

I had a wierd dream last night. I dreamt about someone closed to me in the past. In that dream, he is getting married in a few days (in real life too, i think)...

I don't want to elaborate on what happen... I also don't know how and why he appeared. It looked so real, and so emotional... I woke up with a very heavy feeling... Memanglah mimpi tu mainan tidur.. But, could I be missing him? Or is he thinking or missing me? Ntah la, let me be the only one to know what happen... Biarlah rahsia...

Last Weekend

As I mentioned in my previous post, I had a fantastic long weekend due to the holiday that falls on Monday... Here's just a gist of it... (I wanna write more on it but it seems that my emotions are a bit disturbed after recalling on that dream)

Last Saturday: As usual, I cleaned the house in the morning. Went out with Mr. HHH the entire evening... He drove this time... We were supposed to have dinner at Jalan Kayu but we ended up eating at Al-Azhar...

Last Sunday: There was a family function and of course, my family was invited. Since my parents couldn't go due to work, I had to represent my family. I have to drive, since I'm bringing my siblings, aunt and cousins as well. At first, I was quite nervous about driving because it had been ages since I last drove. Not to mention, I haven't been practicing on parking. But for some reason, I was amazed at my capability. Not only was I able to park properly, I was able to do it once! I was also able to do a 3-point turn at a narrow road.

Suddenly the "light" of driving shone on me... I really had fun driving last weekend. After the function, I was supposed to drop-off my aunt and cousins to a chalet at aloha loyang. However, I ended up crashing the chalet (as in, I wasnt invited, but I turned up anyway)...

Luckily I wore the jubah that I bought from Dubai. I over-ate lah last weekend... The self-made fondue was superb! It really made my day!

Last Monday: My dad went Indonesia with his friends last weekend, and I was tasked to send and fetch my mum to work while he was away... After sending my mum in the morning, my sis - Amy & Ika and I went to have breakfast at McD. After that, we drove to Sengkang and finally ended up in Ikea.

Yelah, dengar2 aku dah pandai parking per... So I went out driving with my sisters, bought a few storage boxes in Ikea, fetched my mum back and by the time we reached, it was already 11pm...

Tho it was a long weekend, I didnt have time to rest. End result? My body was aching and I was sooo tired at work all week!

Padan muka aku!

Hmmm... I'm kind of tired typing right now... This weekend, I think I'll just be resting at home, and maybe playing with my cats! *blushes*

Till then people, Love!